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I thought that it will be easier since I've faced it before but no.

It hurts more than it did last time.

I shouldn't play with fire when I already know what the outcome will be. I shouldn't have stepped into the picture and messed everything. I ruined everything that was already perfect then. Now I've got no one to blame but myself. 

I'm sincerely sorry. All the best. :) 

Thai trip/ Beach

Thai trip with TPVB was awesome.

I kinda miss having Yiting, Sophia & Shaun around for this trip. It kinda feels weird without them since I spent quite a lot of time with them for the last trip. 

1st day: Ariport -> Hotel -> Weekend market -> Mookata! 

2nd day: Hotel -> Chula uni -> Platinum -> Chula uni -> Siam

3rd: Hotel - Chula uni -> Platinum -> Crepe -> Chula uni -> Walk around aimlessly

4th day: Water vball/polo -> Pratinum -> Chula uni -> Asiatique

5th: Hotel -> 7-11 -> Airport -> HOME! ^^ 

Kinda sums up my entire "training" trip. Nicole was my room mate, Jiayi was my shopping buddy along with Vinnie and Karyn, Ray was kinda enough to help me wash one jersey, Pat's and King's hats were in my room for the entire trip, Sam's voice was gone on the second day, Sheila spent most of her time in Jiayi's room, street foods are the best, get to know some new people & Nicole was an awesome room mate cause she managed to wake me up and I didn't feel awkward with her. Got to know more people during this trip too! Yay~

Before take off 

Suffering under the hot sun on the first day. 

At Asiatique with the sign because Sheila said that we have to do it and it was a mandatory thing to do.

(This was the clearest among the 5 picture taken by 2 different people. Hmm...) 

Before heading home! (Only 1 was on the wheelchair) 

Chula uni

Zoom into Nicole's face! 

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SIM BEACH COMPETITION

We surprisingly got 1st for this competition. Really like playing with them! It was fun throughout the entire competition. And I got burnt pretty badly. I look like a monkey now... :( 

 

90's

<3

Best entertainer ever 

Some Sticky, Hoegaarden and Arrows to end my day :)

YOU'LL NEVER GET CAUGHT BY TEACHERS IF YOU DO THIS. Confirm! 

Really glad that things are back to normal. ツ

Faves

Just spent 3 hours lying on my couch listening to songs off my laptop. These are my top 10 (for now):

& lastly my all time fave....

Never gets old. Gdnight.

Finally after 3 weeks. :)

Really afraid

Funny conversations by funny ppl

Seriously the funniest conversations for the week. 

Okay or maybe I'm easily entertain. Idkkkkkk. I am feeling super high and drowsy from the medicine. I've got to get well by tomorrow. There's training tmr and beach on Thursday! :)))))
This week ain't great but at least I'm done with every individual assignment. I'm left with 1 group project and then.. HOLIDAYS, HERE I COME. Hahaha kay bye. 

Holidays. Can't wait

Fav song, fav singer & fav rendition. Sooo much love in one video! 

Things I am (maybe) going to do during the holidays:

1. BEACH VBALL @ SENTOSA - If I'm not THAT lazy to travel 
2. USS - Only if the roller coasters are all running 
3. Gotta watch HUNGER GAMES - Don't have the time to watch and majority of the people had already caught it. I guess I'm going to catch it alone directly after my tests!! ^^
4. Really really wanna see the red pandas at the zoo (Maybe. Gotta find a willing party. Mandai is PRETTY far.) 
5. THAILAND TRIP WITH TPVB
6. Dunman vball meet up (Edmond's planing it! YAY.) 

JUST GONNA ENJOY MYSELF AS MUCH AS POSSIBLE with the right companies! :) 

That aside, TODAY SUCKED. I never ever had cramps before but today it decided to torture me. My day was super unproductive because of this. I mean... I literally spend half of my day in bed all curled up. Now I know why girls complain about them all the time. I HATE BEING A GIRL (Just for today). Gosh. I sound so whiny right now.

Is it even possible to miss someone this much? Kill me already. 

Volleyball/ YT's 21st/ Fun

The guys got 1st for Opens and girls got 4th.
(Not all of the girls are present)
It was definitely one of the hardest competitions and one of my very-off season ever.

Got 3rd for Beach 4v4 Opens (Team 90's)

First time playing with them but it was fun! It was rather impromptu and..... HAHA JUST FUN.

Got 2nd for Tharman cup

Burnt my entire weekend with them. It was fun too and we really did play well as a team! ^^

And lastly, 1st for both girls and guys for the recent POL-ite games! ^^v

King 

<3

Oh and my sis joined the team! <3 

I've got to admit, TPVB is definitely one of the reasons why I love going to school. I mean, honestly, everyone in the team is easy to get along with and they're friendly and fun! Be it, those who graduated or those who are in the current team. They are both fun and nice people. I am suuuuper lucky to be able to know all of them! ^^

Had loads of fun over the weekends. Went to Daryl's chalet on Friday with Sheila, etc... and played running man at Yiting's 21st with them!

Man.... I haven't had such fun in weeks. I have been spending most of my time with assignments, projects, competitions and presentation. And I still am!
Down with one test, 2 more to go, 1 presentation and 1 assignment.

2 words.
SAVE. ME.

Just a thought

Whenever I open the case, a wave of memories will come pouring in. It stings. When it does, I often close it and put it back in place where it was last left. But just last week, after a few years of not playing, I played. Honestly, it sounded horrible because... I have no idea how to tune it. But that aside, I still remember how to play my favorite piece. 'Minute'. I remembered spending an hour trying to tune it and it was some where close (Just the E and A string. The D and G strings are kinda..... hahaha). 

Honestly, I really like playing. In fact, I love playing it more than volleyball.. Is this wrong? Cause it feels wrong. I like playing something that stirs up not-so-nice memories more than playing volleyball which brings me nothing but joy.

Haha okay! IF MR TONG IS STILL TEACHING, I am going to quit beach volleyball and join back. :) 

Maybe. Just maybe.

Places I want to go!

The first place is....

to try this.....

And the second place is....

I heard they sell the best home made cakes! 

Okay that's it. My goal of having a healthy diet or working out this holiday seems like a failure already. the only time I exercise is during my training. Luckily it's 3 times per week. If not, I would most probably gain some instead of losing or maintaining it.

Oh and I found my love for beach again. This is soooooo great! :) Today's training was, haven't been saying this in awhile, fun.

I AM SOOOOO WEIRD.

“The thing is, I don’t think of my music as depressing. It’s the opposite, really. You know, it comforts me. It tells me that it’s okay to feel sad or scared or alone and that I’m not alone in how I feel and that’s part of being alive. It’s like a rainy day, you know? A rainy day makes most people sad. Okay, you’re stuck inside, it’s all gloomy, no sunny walk in the park going on but I have to say, I love a rainy day. It’s just an excuse to stay inside and drink hot chocolate, hang out in my room or read a book or just have a day to be alone. I don’t want to go on a walk in the park anyway. I don’t know what that says about me, just because I find comfort in silence and a little sadness. I don’t think that makes me a morose person. I’m just more comfortable in that place. I don’t know, maybe I’m kidding myself.”

—	Peyton Sawyer

Honestly, I get sick of things very easily and I don't know why either. One moment I am super attached to something and the next, I feel super tired of it. One great example is my current job.

When I first got there, I feel like as though this was it. The first job that I am going to stay on throughout my entire holiday. It was perfect. The surrounding, the people, the drinks, the freedom and the attire. Everything is super laid back and just not that hard.

But now, I am starting to feel like there isn't anything much to those already. At first it was great and all but now, everything seems normal. 

This may sound random but... I WANT TO GET OUT OF SINGAPORE. *Please send me away!* I want a short and perfect getaway. And my definition of a 'perfect getaway'  is just staying at some Bed & Breakfast place in the country side where there's mountains and a field of flowers(specifically sunflowers), with horses available for you to ride or groom and pizzas everywhere for the entire trip. Just something relaxing but yet, enjoyable. 

I want this because I need some time on my own. I want to venture off aimlessly without caring about anyone's wants. To only satisfy my own needs. But......sadly I don't think I'll be able to that unless I am 30 or something. The thing is my parents are very protective and I need them to know that I want to be able to enjoy myself before I actually have to focus on my future. Being 18 is definitely the best timing to do things that I want to do. When I reach 21, enjoying life and doing things as and when I want isn't really ideal at all. 

They really really reallllllllllly need to know that it's time! Haha but I have no idea how to bring this up again. The last time I brought this up.... let's just say.... my father got what he wanted which is me listening and agreeing with him. I have to learn to have a firm stand first. And when the time comes, I will have 'THE TALK'. 

The past few days was pretty great. Except for the fact that training was cancelled twice which means I haven't exercised for 5 days (FAT) and I have this sudden rash which I have no idea what caused it.

I've got to work from 3pm-1am tomorrow. PLEASE let it be a breeze! :( 

So addicted to this song: 

Just like old times

Have yet to find someone who listens the same type of music that I like. Most of them find my taste kinda weird. Not only in musics but generally EVERYTHING. I honestly don't blame them though. Haha! In fact, I  agree with them! :)

This may sound random but I think I am a super boring person who likes boring stuffs. For example, I like watching movies that I've already seen like 3 times. I mean who does that right? Normally people would just get super bored of it but I won't! I am still not bored of Mr. and Mrs. Smith even though I've watched it like a gazillion times (Ok, this sounds exaggerating but you get the point right?)


N E WAYZ......
My phone has been super quiet recently. I am not quite used to it yet but I'm going to! I have to. I want to be like last time where I can actually go one whole day without looking or touch my phone.


Ok bye! (See!! Even my signing off is boring. I honestly have no idea what to write. It's either this or goodnight.)

That's it. I AM OFFICIALLY THE MOST BORING PERSON EVAAAAAA.

Finally. 

After days of feeling all tensed and uneasy, today was good! ^^

Relief.

Just stuffs.

Wayne, Geng Cun and Ning are off to serve the country. I am soooooo going to miss them! No more late night nonsense on Whatsapp from this 2 idiots. I can't wait to see them bald though. Hahaha! :)

TPVB girls got 3rd for IVP, where as the guys got 2nd~ I'm sooooo going to miss this team. It's my first in TP. I hope next year is going to be as great as it was this year! 

I tried FAT BOYS the first time this year! It was good. Best burger in Singapore (To me). 

Today's the end of year 1. Hopefully my new classmates will be fun and easy to communicate with.

Exam's in less than a week and...... I haven't really started on my revision. Studying is hard.

Btw... I'm so hook onto this song. 

-End-

IVPIVPIVP

IVP is going on and suddenly the whole team isn't playing like how we normally play :( Coach seems super disappointed to the extent that he never talk to us during time outs. I have no idea why.. Suddenly I miss Shenjiaolian. His presence really give me a sense of security. Like if I am lost in a game, he will always find a way to make me not feel that lost and regain my composure.

I honestly don't feel confident when I am on the court now a days. I seem so uncertain about the things that I am doing. This is bad.and I honestly think I will be bench next year. And if that happens, I really don't know whether I can hang on... But whatever it is, I have to play well for this IVP. 

I don't know why but I got this feeling that I am playing just to fill the spot and as long as I don't make any mistake, everyone will feel relief. I really don't like it... It wasn't like this in the past. Fuck. 

This month and next month is going to be tough. There's project submission, tests, presentation, IVP, trainings and exams all packed in these 2 months. 

I didn't really contribute much for this sem's projects. Thank god for my super understanding group mates! :) 

New year resolutions

Not really a fan of these kind of movie but I'll make an exception for Nicholas Spark's movie!
I really can't wait to catch this.

And my New Year resolution is to pull up my GPA, get top 4 for IVP & POL-ite and I just want everyone who means a lot to me to just stay. That's all. I'm not asking for too much right.....? I hope not. :)