School-ed today and seriously.... LECTURES ARE DAAAAMN BORING. I slept directly in front of the teacher (Not on purpose ofcourse). Oh yaaaa and i was almost marked absent for today's lesson. The buses that goes to TP are always full at the safra bus stop till i gotta walk all the way to the biz block. Sigh~

It's labour day tomorrow which means NO SCHOOL. Yessss! There's training tmrrrrr. I should get going now. Byee~


Oh and i just found out the ultimate truth about the person whom i cared about alot, Aunty Susan. I still can't believe she did that and i really felt sad, angry and guilty all at once when Aunty Josephine told me abt the news. Ahhhh anyway i shouldn't be bothered ab out it anymore! Hehehe gdnight ^^

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LOVE THIS CLASS! 5A <3

Orientation was okay i guess? I mean... i wasn't too happy nor was i unhappy with the class. What i'm trying to say is... after being with 5A for the past 3 years, going into this entirely new class with not a single familiar soul around feels kinda lonely and totally not right. I feel outta place. I talked to a few people today but i still don't feel like i belong to that class. I know everyone feels that way too but....i just don't like it you know? I don't like the fact that in 5A, I and all my other classmates belonged. But in a blink of an eye, everything's over and now i have to start from square one and find a place in the class. Ahh. I am so unhappy now.

Oh and a thing that really pissed me off was this girl in my class. She dropped something on the floor. I offered to pick it up for her but she turned me down and said 'No. It's not really impt and i can picked it up afterwards' in a stuck up voice and gave me that 'get away from me asshole' kinda look. I don't wana sound mean but honestly?!?! Are you kidding me?! You could had just turned me down in a polite manner. Fucked up seriously! Ok she looked kinda sick and seems like she's dying but i don't think that's an excuse to treat someone whom she do not know who wana do something good for her in this manner. No matter how tired or grouchy she feels, she should control her emotions. She is definitely on my black list alrdy. Full stop.

Ahhh i feel like running now. I feel so vexed but i can't run cause of my knee. I wana do something to keep my mind blank. Nvm, i shall listen to music then. Sigh~

The good thing is i don't feel lonely in class cause there's this girl name Jia Rui. She's okay! I mean i like her but i don't think i really categorize her as my friend cause it's just day one. Haha we'll see :) Oh and there's a StHildas volleyballer in my class!

I wana relive those moments that mean a lot to me. I miss everything and everyone in my old life. And by old life, i meant the people who meant a lot to be a year ago.

PAY PHONE!

Maroon5's new vidddd! Damn cuteee~ Adam levine looks nice in cartoon form too :)

1 week off

Okay i have been bag hunting for the past hour and i seriously wana get this! But the problem is..... idk how to buy things from yesstyle.com ! Ahhh~ Sigh. Nvm, i'll ask my sis to help me with that tmr! :)

Went to Tp's training with Claira, Jiayi, Sheila, Sam, Stella, and Chleo! Something bad happened during the training. Sheila dislocated her elbow!! It looked damn painful but she was very brave. She didn't cry cause of the pain. And for that, i salute her! Honestly, if i were her i would had alrdy cry the minute when that happened. The shoe bag thingy was horrendous and the match was awesome! :) That's abt it for ytd's training i guess?

Oh yaaaa! And i hurt my knee about 2 days ago and the pain started to get worse ytd night. I slept for less than 7 hours. I kept waking up during certain intervals because my knee was in some kind of position that bring about the sharp pain. I had difficulties getting up from my bed too. It took me approx 3 mins to step off of my bed. so i went to the doc and he said it was nothing serious. I just need to take a break from vball for at least a week and it'll be alright :) That's good to know but..... a week is kinda long for me. I need to ball to occupy myself and to control my mood. If i don't ball for at least 2x per week, i get easily irritated :$

Gotta find something to occupy myself for the entire day tmr. Not going outta my house. I need my knee to heal fast! Gdnight~

I want....

TO RIDE ON A HORSE ON MY BDAY!!! :)

Why? Cause i think that they are the most majestic animals on the face of this earth! That and.... that was the first animal that i ever dared to touch in my whole entire life. I think that they are strong and fearless. Idk why i got this concept of horses... but i think it has something to do with that time when i watched 'War horse'.

There's training tmr and plans after that! ;)

There's training on monday and the orientation camp is getting nearer. I am stoke abt the trainings and plan but am dreading the orientation part.

(this may seem random...)

I hate it when i let someone decide things for me even when i don't really like doing it. The worst part is that i eventually end up doing the things that they want me to do. I hate it i hate it i hate it i hate it!!!!

I also hate it when I can't make a stand for myself, i hate it when i can't voice out what i really want, I hate what i am becoming and i hate what i am right now.

CS (A little less than half) dinner!

Met up with Cynthia and Wilson to watch Dunman bball guys match. It was niceee! Changhao scored alot of goals in the 1st and 2nd quarter. I was stunned!

After that, i rushed off to Presby to meet up with the people (Claira, Le, Jolly, Cass, Qianwen, Ziqing, Mr Chew, Mr Ang, William and the hongkong coach's family) The hongkong coach family looked damn sweet tgt. Esp when the little girl played with her father! Hahaha daaaaaamn cute! :)Oh and the most epic thing that happened was when the little girl point the middle finger straight at William's face! (Ofcourse she didn't know the meaning of it luh)

Gonna meet Wilson at SIM tmr, accompany him to play ball then off to training! That is...... IF THE TSUNAMI THING ISN'T REAL.

I really really wish that it isn't real! I haven't do alot of things yet and of course, there are alot of awesome peeps that doesn't deserve to die yet. Ahhhh~ please don't let it be real!!!!!!!

(LIVEEEEE!! :O)

T minus 9 days

9 more days till the poly orientation. Jas alrdy complained that her class isn't that fun at all. I hope that mine will be like 5A! ^^ And hopefully Claira will be in my class again. *Fingers crossed*

Went out with Sean, Hao and Denise to Kovan to play pool! It was entertaining and fun! The bus ride home was funny and short. They went about debating about some random text that said something like they won 100 000 pounds. Then went about to getting pregnant at young age, marrying rich ppl, etc...

I just realized that 90% of the ppl i know are super cock-ish and funny! Awesome! Loveeeeee it ^^

Gonna meet Sheilalalala to watch A divs tomorrow then off to training~~~

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I honestly felt a pang when i know the reason. The truth really does hurt alot. A part of me felt at ease when i found out about it and another part of me wished that i didn't knw it. That night felt like hell. Guilt, anger, remorse, happiness and sadness all swirled up like some whirlpool and made my (alrdy then) whiskey-ed tummy and mind spin on rage mode.

The last drop.

Are you well?

had training today and i think i re-injured my left elbow. Idk why but the sharp pain is back! It hurts to the extent that i have to ask Sheilalalala to finish tying my hair for me! :@@@

Ifeel like eating choco banana and pretz (roasted) now. I can't find any of them in Singapore!!

feels like eternity,

302~

Half of the CS peeps! ^^

Went for B'div finals ytd! PHS and SQS won. I am happy for Le! She played super well ytd. Hehe she confirm on cloud nine when we all praised her.

Things i did ytd and today:

1) Watch finals at tpy sports hall. Sheila, bird and CS (half of the team) was there!

2) Training

3) Chalet with Cs, Hao, Sean and Darren

4) Went for training at Dunman with Claira and Qianwen

I miss my coach, Dunman team and CS peeps! I wana go back in time and go back to Taiwan and Vietnam again with the same people. I really liked those trips! I wana go shi ling ye shi, qing ren qiao, eat fried chicken, eat rice with braised meat, singing k on the bus, listening to poo and cs act like DJs on the bus, see ppl laugh at others getting lock out of their rooms and seeing those ppl who laughed get locked out too. I wana have steamboat at Arnold's house, bbq, do art at Eileen's house and alot more! :)

Tp's training starting soon~ Hopefully when school starts, i will be able to balance between trainings and school work because if i was forced to choose between them, i honestly dk which to give up. So... fingers crossed!!

Today feels easy. Like everything was how it was a year before. Easy.

~

love today!! :)

Went to meet Mr Sum after 4 months! Was happy when i saw him but the most idiotic part was he didn't even say HI to me. Instead he said 'weiyu why you so dark?!'. Freeeeeeak! But still that's alright cause he bought us all ice cream after our meal! :) Ohhh and there's baskin robins in NEX too. Woooo~ But the price isn't that 'welcoming' as the one in Thailand. And for this i must say that life really sucks! Went to find Sean at the chalet then went off to meet wilson and accompany him to 134 there to play bball!! Russ and Yongjian were there. Haven't seen them for quite a long time alrdy! :)

Haha ok i received the tp's orientation letter alrdy. And sad to say hell starts on the 19 or April. I know many people are actually pretty pumped up about the orientation thing. I wana be like them too but honestly... i don't really like meeting new people. Too awkward plus.... knowing too many people = chances of being involved in politics are high. Idk why but i'm super afraid of being in one!!!! :@ Hehehe but nvm, if i actually got into one.. i got 2 fierce friends to help me. SHEILA AND JIAYI! One show tattoo the other one.... attack with her mouth! Hahahahahaha! (Really laughing out loud now cause i'm picturing the entire scene!!!!)

Jas and Shikin are in both in Nyp. Andy's in ite and Wilson went SIM. We are all seperatedddddddd except for CS, Russ, Marsh and me. Damn! :(

Gonna watch the Girls B div finals with Shielalalalala tomorrow then off to Clementi to meet Wilson to watch Dunman vs presby bball then off for training! Tmr's gonna be a loooooooooooooong day but i like! ^^v

(Just a random thought) I wonder if the thing that happened 10 years ago didn't actually happened. Then, what kind of person will i be like right now...?

Oh ya and i heard this song.....

during training on sat where there was a wedding there by the ocean. It was superrrrr nice and elegant. I decided that this will be my wedding song (if i have one) Hahahahahha! MAD RIGHT?! I know!!!

APRIL FOOLS!!! :)

Went out with Le today and we went to watch the FLOWERS OF WAR! Haha i think it was her first NC16 movie. I managed to sneak her in! ^^vIt was nice! I really liked the movie. It really shows the true side of humanity. Like sacrificing and sparing thoughts for others despite knowing them for a short period of time and how horrible people act under dire circumstances. After watching that i feel really grateful that Singapore isn't involved in any war right now and i really hope that there won't be one in any country now and in the mere future. But obviously we all know that that isn't entirely possible thanks to greedy beings! Really dk why am i talking about this anyway. But heck~ Haha :)

Sean came to find us after the movie and we went to eat. They both are irritating people!!! Like irritating ttm. Cannot stand them but they are still the best! <3 (Haaa so contradicting --,)

Le went off after the dinner, me and Sean then head to dte to meet Darren and watch HUNGER GAMES. It was nice too! Hahaha i am damn happy cause i watched 2 gd movies in a day with my good friends.

Gonna meet Mr sum with Cs, Cal and Ivan! I kinda miss Mr Sum shouting for us during our games during sec 1 and 2,

Idk why but i suddenly got this nostalgic feeling. I miss everything about sec school and stuffs that happened 10years ago. I really love it then because there isn't much things to worry about. Now everything's in a mess! Haha but it's getting better and i'm almost getting everything back to how it was before. The way it was suppose to be.

OH YAAAA! And about April fools day... I managed to help Le prank her friend, i pranked Sean and some others on twitter and i got pranked by ZUXIAN. That ancestor really cannot!! She messaged me and asked me to call her at some number claiming that it was urgent. So i called her directly after my hunger games and guess what?! That number was the IMH hotline. TMD! I stunned for awhile then i put down the phone. Haha that was the best prank for today. But i felt sorry for Darren though. Before meeting us he told us that he dislocated his knee. I and Sean didn't believe it cause it was april fools day. I mean obviously right!!! April fools tell us this kinda thing who wil believe one?! Hahahaha even Joyce also don't believe when Darren told her. He got no concerned out of anyone. #foreverloner!

Love this chinese song!!

Another phase of life. I'm gonna get through this :)