Okay so i went training ytd. And it was weird.... cause there was only 2 person that i known and i wasn't that close to Ziqing during CS. So it was pretty awkward....
It was kinda challenging. Not sure whether i will wana join but for now i think Yes! :) Gonna go for a few more to finalize my decision. Ahhh how i wish Jiayi's able to go!!!
My day started out with my father telling me that i wasn't able to go to Genting with #theymental. I was pretty angry at that moment cause I really wanted to go. I only went to genting for like once in my life!!! And that one time, i was afraid of riding the roller coasters. He kept on harping that it wasn't safe. Saying that the drivers drive recklessly and stuffs. And also i told my mother that i MIGHT be going to sentosa on most of the saturdays and she asked me to talk to my father cause apparently he don't like me going there because alot of people drown there.
I mean, i L them and all for protecting me but.... sometimes i just wish that they would be a little less protective from me getting hurt and stuffs. I mean... getting hurt, emotionally or physically, it kinda a part of life. I want to be independent (since i'm 18 and i think i'm old enough? Idk Hahaha), i wana learn new things, i wana take risks, i wana make my own decisions, etc....
In other words, i'm kinda restricted to do the things that i wana do. I'm not even allowed to go to JB with my friends. I mean L them. I seriously do. They try their best to prevent me from getting hurt in all sort of ways, i get it. It is what parents do. But it's because of that i sorta seem dumb to my friends because they think that i am not able to do the simplest of all things like cooking maggie mee or washing my own shoes.
There was once when i actually want to learn something during homeec, i told my partner that that was my first time cooking something and she said 'okay i teach you'. Ended up, she did everything and i just washed the dishes during the whole segment. And she EVEN taught me how to do the dishes -.-
Also, recently my friend said to me 'if you're my mother's daughter i think she'll go crazy' just because i didn't want to pester the store to give me my pay that was due last month. I didn't want to cause i scared that they won't be happy about it and also.... i was kinda afraid that they might get angry(Idk why i felt that way but i just did).
I admit i am kind of a slow learner and i didn't know how to cook a simple maggie mee dish till i was sec 2. It's not because i didn't want to learn. It's because of some reasons. But now i know to do it alrdy and i'm actually good at cooking noodles. So.. STOP JUDGING ME. I know how to cook noodles now and it tastes good!!! :@
OK so what i want is just for my parents to be a little less protective over me. That's all. But i still L them.
The 'L' that i typed is the 4 letter words. I don't type it out cause... i don't really like that word! Bye! :)
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