Feel awful.

Went for brunch with Wil, Cs and Mr teo! Saw lots of familiar faces when i entered dunman and at the same time, i saw lots of UNFAMILIAR faces. Tmr's the bgirls first match of the season. All the best~~ Honestly, i really feel like going back to dunman and help them win the championship again since i missed my chance last year. That was the ultimate regret in my life. I think we didn't get the champ title is because i wasn't a good captain because i didn't pull the team together and play as one. Ahhh.. and i'm pretty certain that coach was really upset with my performance that season. Even i agreed that i didn't do well!

Isn't it saddening to know that you did all the things to make people accept you and went about letting them get what they want or doing what they want you to but in the end... because of one hurtful comment it questioned everything you thought you were before and made you think what you actually are isn't actually what you think you are. The most ironic thing is that a stranger who completely knows nothing about you, not even your full name, thinks that way. I always tell myself 'mind over body' but why in this case, it doesn't seem to be working. Why is that so? (I'm not emoing. I'm just feeling puzzled :))

On the brighter note, i got my Galaxy S2! yay.

HTM! :)

Okay the results are out and i'm in Hospitality and Tourism management (TP ofcourse)! I am happy that i got in but at the same time, i'm also glad that Claira is in the same course and same school as me for the 3rd time! Hahaha we've known each other for 14 years! This is insanely AWESOME. I mean how cool is that?!
Haha and... I'm happy that Huijie, Jiayi, Samantha, Stella, Sheila and Chuansiang all got into tp! But i am not happy about the fact that MISS JASMINE TAN SHI HUI got into NYP! :(

Wonder this time round who will be the first person who will talk to me other than those whom i know. Hahaha! Cause during secondary school the ONLY person who dared to approach and talk to me is Jasmine. Idk why but they said that at that time i look like i'm going to kill anyone at anytime. No kidding!! :$

Went to pool in the afternoon with Cs and Wil. Hao and Darren came after wards then went to watch Viral factor with them + Jasmine! It's a good movie. Damn intense! And... both Jay chou and Nicholas tse are h...a...w...t.

Gonna meet Cs and Wil in Dunman to eat with Mr teo!


Just a random thought.. but i really want my house to have a good audio system so that i'll be able to hear my songs after a days work!! :)

Relief.

I'm done with both my JPSAE and JAE. Got a call from tp that there will be an 'audition' for HTM on monday. I'm so afraid and thinking about it makes my knees weak. Chickenzzzz! I feel like as though my whole future will depend on this! Exaggerating much?! But that's how i feel!!! ><

Ahh! I hope Jas, Jiayi, Cs, Poo, Stella, Samantha and Sheila will get into the course that they want. Claira and Sandra got the call too! I hope they will ace it :)
Honestly, i can't wait for poly to start! I can't wait to start playing vball and actually training for a reason and not just train for fun.

Gonna buy my new year clothes with Claira and Le tmr since my parents kept on pestering me to buy them. I think they really do want me to buy something decent for myself since i don't really shop. They even gave me money on their own accord without me asking for it!! So girls...... here's the trick. If you want your parents to give you money to buy clothes and stuffs, don't buy any clothes for yourself for at least 6months or so. It works! Haha but of course i didn't do this on purpose. I really dont like to shop.

Amanda Seyfried - Little house

I love this place

But it's haunted without you

My tired heart

Is beating so slow

Our hearts sing less

Than we wanted

We wanted

Our hearts sing 'cause

We do not know

We do not know

To light the night

To help us grow

To help us grow

It is not said

I always know

You can catch me

Don't you run

Don't you run

If you live another day

In this happy little house

The fire's here to stay

To light the night

To help us grow

To help us grow

It is not said

I always know

Please don't make a fuss

It won't go away

The wonder of it all

The wonder that I made

I am here to stay

I am here to stay

Stay

I miss 5A

Yeap! I know it seems kinda random but i really really miss 5A... we've been with one another for atleast 3 years and throughout our last year in Dunman, we had some conflicts (Pineapple rice, PTK, etc...), it kinda brought us together to really solve the entire issue.
I was gone for atleast 2 weeks during August and honestly, during that time i really really miss the class! Luckily when i came back, everything was still the way it was before i left. Except for the part where suddenly there was a tent (yes a camping tent) in our class room. Other then that, everything seems normal!
I rmb when i was in sec 3, i didn't talked to Faan, Zak, Haikal, Nabil, etc.... cause i thought they were noisy! Hahaha! But as time goes by, i've learnt that they are one of the most humorous guys i've ever known. I mean who pees in a school sink and dressed up as some half naked tribal hunter during lit week? Ahh~ i'm def gonna miss them.
Other than 5A, i'll also miss SHIKIN AND ATIQAH VERY MUCH!

Ok so today we make our way down, in our uniforms, to Dunman Secondary with heavy hearts feeling all nervous and weak in the knees. After the whole thing, some felt as though the future seems bleak to them and some were extremely happy because they had alot of choices to choose from. I was in between. I did not do too badly and i did not do good. So I'm kinda stuck in the middle. I don't exactly know how to react after seeing my classmates reactions, whether to feel sad or happy. I was lost. Then it finally dawned to me that all these people around me, they mean ALOT to me and how they feel actually affects me. For the first time in a long while, i actually felt like they meant alot to me. Especially when i saw Jas crying. Honestly, some tears were starting to form, but i sucked it back in #likeavacuumcleaner.
I remember the last time i cried was 3 years ago when i sprained my ankle cause of this girl who jumped over to my side of the cour and i landed on her foot and SHE DIDNT EVEN SAY SORRY LUH!

Anyway, in conclusion, today i felt very shitty but at the same time i feel happy for those who scored well! :)

Tmr's D day!

It's either 'THE' or 'DOOMS'.

I AM GONNA COLLECT MY O'LEVELS CERT TMR AND I AM FEELING VERY NERVOUS!
There are many "what if(s)"! Like... what if i fail english? What if i can't get into the course that i want? What if.... i have to go ite? Ahh! STRESS MODE.... ON.

Freak! I can't wait for tomorrow to come. And hopefully, after the collection i can go down to TP for the jpsae form thing, with a smile instead of a face with 'sad' written all over it.
I sincerely hope that everyone around me will be able to score well and be happy tomorrow! I hope and wish that no one breaks down. I wish that my class, 5A and 5B will be able to go to a poly and people whom i know from the express (Zuxian, Josh, Angelina, Timothy, etc...) will be able to get the scores that they desired to get at the beginning!

Oh and i have something to say that i'm proud of. That is..... I drank vodka today at Claira's chalet! Ahhh~ Accomplished. It's a step closer to my 2012 goal which is to get drunk! LOL. Weird? I know! :)

Finally!

I officially declare that i, Ong Wei Yu, finally has something to aim for. I've finally come to a decision on what course am i going to choose after 3 years and 8 days of serious consideration. I am going to choose.........

HOSPITALITY AND TOURISM MANAGEMENT!

Sounds good? :)

I think it does! The best part is you get to choose to go to anywhere (Yeap ANYWHERE) in the world for your internship but... the not so good part is that that course is known as the 'busiest' course in tp and bsg is the slack-iest course. I think so? Or so i've heard..... but heck! I'm gonna aim for it. Now the only problem standing in my way and that ideal course of mine is..... my results. The most i could get 18. Then, if my JPSAE form get accepted, i can minus 5 points of from the score. At times like this, i'm really grateful that i have volleyball as my CCA! :)

I AM HAPPY and finally, for the first time in 3 years, i don't feel lost!
K, gdnight world~ :))))

It has been a long time

“Sometimes when you’re young, you think nothing can hurt you. It’s like being invincible. Your whole life is ahead of you, and you have big plans. Big plans. To find your perfect match. The one that completes you. But as you get older, you realize it’s not always that easy. It’s not until the end of your life that you realize how the plans you made were simply plans. At the end, when you’re looking back instead of forward, you want to believe that you made the most of what life gave you. You want to believe that you’re leaving something good behind. You want it all to have mattered.”

—	Lucas Scott (One Tree Hill 5.15-Life is Short)

Radiation

HE'S AWESOME! :)

Went to Tp's open house today, met up with Stella and Samantha and some Sthildas vballers, walked around tp to look at the course, saw Sengcheong, Adam, Hao, Sean, watched Kyne performed, went to tm with Claira, walked around, went home, went out to ehub to eat with with my relatives, met up with wilson to take the cardigan, saw the rest, said bye, home!

That was how i spent my day. Gonna go to Sp's open house with Calista and ChuanSiang tomorrow! Hopefully... we won't get lost. Haha SLEEP~ :)

Troubled

"There are moments in our lives when we find ourselves at a crossroad. Afraid, confused, without a road map. The choices we make in those moments can define the rest of our days. Of course, when faced with the unknown, most of us prefer to turn around and go back. But once in awhile, people push on to something better. Something found just beyond the pain of going it alone, and just beyond the bravery and courage it takes to let someone in, or give to some one a second chance. Something beyond the quiet persistence of a dream. because it's only when you're tested that you truly discover who you are. And it's only when you are tested that you discover who you can be. The person who you want to be does exist, somewhere on the other side of faith, hard work and belief. And beyond heartaches and fears of what lies ahead."

-Lucas Scott from One Tree Hill

I didn't know that making decisions are so hard. I have been considering and reading on the poly courses that are available since the start of sec 3 and till now, i still can't decide on one. I think the main problem is... just maybe.... i think that i think too much about the......future.
When i try to see myself 10years from now, i can't picture anything. Everything just seems bleak and dull to the extend that i actually think that maybe i don't have a future.
Everyone around me seems to be very certain about the things they do or about to do. But for me, even the simplest decision like "should i continue my job" or "should i find a new job", is so tedious that i actually stayed up till ALMOST dawn and still have no clue about what am i going to do.

I hate being a fickle minded baboon but I can't help it and i hate it!
I HAVE BEEN FEELING SO FRUSTRATED WITH MYSELF SINCE FOREVER. THIS IS GIVING ME A HEADACHE. I know what you're thinking when you read this. You must be thinking "why this girl must create so much trouble for her self" right? Truth is, i try not to but the problem is.. I just can't.