2013 in one post (accidentally saved in draft)

"Once you lose yourself, you have two choices. Find the person you used to be, or lose that person completely Because sometimes you have to step outside of the person you've been and remember the person you were meant to be. The person you wanted to be. The person you are."

It's 15 of January and it finally dawned to me that it's 2014. (Okay, took me 15 days to actually settled down for the new year)

The starting of 2013 was a blast however, it didn't ended on a high note. But whatever it is, I need to be thankful for everything. 

Last year, I did stuffs that I didn't think I would ever do. I kinda caught myself off guard at times. Stuffs like piercing my belly (Hehhhhhh, yes. So not me but I like it on me :P), putting effort in doing something for someone and actually worked at a semi-bar. 

I made lots of new friends, got to know some people better, got to know someone that I wish to know since I was 14, spent the best Christmas ever, experience how clubbing was like, experience how being drunk was like (check off my list), etc... Too lazy to mention everything but just know that, I didn't waste last year. It was rather one of the best years of my life. I mean.... I am not proud of things that I have done but.. for the first time in my whole entire life, I actually did things that I am not proud of and was kinda defiant instead of being the normal goody-two-shoes. HAHA AND I HONESTLY HAVE NO IDEA WHY I AM HAPPY ABOUT IT. 

Last year, I made the same mistake when I was in secondary 2. This time, I swear with all my heart, that it will never ever happen again. And IF (hopefully not) the same situation rises again, I will walk away this time. It kinda sucks being the one who gets left behind. But oh well.... I am kinda used to it so this time, so far so good. No mishaps and I did not summit to temptations. B)

I am especially thankful for my friends. Especially Sheila, Jiaen, Jasmine, Xinghao, Vinnie and Chuansiang. I really have to listen to them more often! I have to stop being soooooo stubborn. 

I know everyone's blogging about their mandatory 'resolutions for 2014' and I should do one too but.. nah. I have nothing to work towards to. I just want my GPA to increase, be focused, be happy and healthy. 

I want to be how I was back in secondary 5. It was definitely the best period of my whole entire school life and it was a period where I handled everything smoothly. That year was a breeze. Fun loving classmates and cliques, teachers (Mr Teo, Ms Neeta, Ms Hannah Yeo, Mr Chong, Ms Thong & Mr Tan) stupid things we (classmates) got ourselves into. Dunman vball team also played a huge part in my life because it was the first time I was put in charge of the something and I had to "command" them and stuffs. I definitely step out of my comfort zone that year. I had to admit I didn't really fit the job as a captain but am thankful that my team mates know me well and know that I don't know how to lead. So they were pretty independent most of the time. (Sometimes, I really can't help but wonder whether it's my fault for not acting all captain-like that cost us our most dreadful lost during the semis). 

I can sense that this year is going to be great. It has to be. IVP's tomorrow and I am not a least bit psych about it. I woke up having to drag my left leg because my left knee injury is back. Haven't been walking much for today. Hopefully, it won't really affect me for tomorrow's game. 

ALL THE BEST TPVB! <3

Ending the post with my fav song for now: