troubled.

The worst feeling ever is when you know something is wrong and yet you can't do anything much to help them.

Presenting the best gift EVER! :)

This is officially one of the best gift I've received from my friends. The fact that it's DIY makes it even better.

Firstly, I am really glad that I was in Dunman. If I were to go to a different school, I wouldn't meet a lot of awesome people plus I might not be enjoying my Secondary life that much. I know I've been talking about how much fun Dunman is as compared to Poly for the last couple of months, but it's true! In poly, there are toooooo many people and a lot of unfamiliar faces. However, in Dunman you will be able to recognize people for most of the time. AND AGGREGATES AREN'T ACCUMULATED EACH TERM. Sigh.

Anyway, went to Sentosa yesterday and the whole event was to celebrate Sean and my birthday. I was kinda surprised cause honestly, I thought we went there to just hang out and play. Wilson's mother made cake for us and the rest made the boards for each one of us. It was fun! Played volleyball and for the first time in awhile, I didn't feel stressed out playing volleyball! :)


I've been feeling a little bit stressed out while playing volleyball in both indoor and beach for the past year and I have no idea why. For the last competition, it was my first time sitting out of a game for a set. That was how bad my condition is. If Shen jiaolian actually heard about how I played, I think he will be disappointed. Heck! IF HE SAW HOW I PLAYED FOR POLITE, HE WILL DEFINITELY BENCH ME FOR THE WHOLE SEASON. I don't know why but I am getting lousier. Maybe it's a sign?! Hahaha oh and I WANA DO HIGH JUMP AGAIN!!!

In the still of the night, recollections of bitter and sweet past memories came flooding into my pinot grigro mind. Some were regretful and some I really wish it could happen again. Wouldn't it be nice if we all can delete some things or some people? 

I have a goal. I think?

Just gottan my GPA result today and it was DISAPPOINTING. Let's just say..... i have to get a GPA of 3.4 next sem to get a GPA of 3 for the year. So, next month is gonna be challenging. But I have to do better than what I can. Cause.... I WANA GET INTO SIT! What course?.... It's a secret! :)

 Stressssssss. Everyone around me seems to be doing very well and for the first time, I feel like a loser. Don't get me wrong. I am happy for my friends that they got the results that they want but I am just unhappy with mine. This includes volleyball too. Ahh. I am losing confidence in everything. Fyi, I am not feeling sad or emotional over anything. I am just disappointed by my performance for this whole year. Not being able to perform well for my first pol-ite, having to do super badly for the first sem and I'm doing badly for beach right now. So demoralizing. Haiiiiiiii. Anyway, I am finally 18! I am super grateful that I have awesome friends like Jasmine, Jiaen, Sheila, Hao, Cs, Wilson, Marshall, Yongjian and alot more. Especially Sean! He planned my bday and stuffs. Oh and my father's going to buy sparkling wine cause I told him I wana try them since I am 18!

 Lastly, HAPPY BIRTHDAY BIRD! ~~~~~~~

 

Trying to keep up but suddenly it feels overwhelming.
Drowned in anxieties. Counting on faith, that's all I can do.
No one to lean on to? Afraid not,
A pair of legs will do! :)

So meaningful ;)

John F. Kennedy said, “the courage of life is a magnificent mixture of triumph and tragedy. A man does what he must, in spite of personal consequences, in spite of obstacles and dangers and pressures. And that is the basis of all morality.”